Save Animals

3 days, 11 hours and 36 minutes left.

i was awaken by a call. didn't manage to pick and at the same time i don't feel like returning her call. maybe later. i just don't know why i've been trying to segregate myself from others.

on the other hand, i found out almost everyone tends to be very secretive and shifty these days but yet they tried to tell you something...just half way and leave you hanging there. well...i'm sick and tired of trying to figure out the whole picture. i don't have much time for the hide and seek.

anyway..everyone seems to be busy with their own stuffs so i shall eat and hang out alone later. need to train up on that.

"after all...i'm going to be alone for quite sometime."

who knows..i'll probably like it.

5 days left.

had the luggage bag in my room right now but it is still empty.
i don't really know what i've been thinking lately.

the truth is...

"i'm not entirely doing this for myself."

coz it's not too bad being here.

8 days left.

i'm almost done buying everything in my checklist. just a few things left which i could possibly get them all in one day. i have yet to disassemble and cover my drumkit since i won't be playing it for quite sometime. pretty damn sure i will miss alot of people here. ummm...

anyway...merry christmas to you all. =)

it is not that bad after all.
at least it clearly shows that i am no longer important or even anyone to you.
i will not sulk into such depression ever again.
moreover, i don't need the new you who wants to be filthy rich with awesome spending power.

thank you...i am able to move on and see the world. =)

texted her to wish her happy anniversary and she doesn't seemed to bother.
she doesn't really care anymore.

my heart bleeds.

it's exactly a year in 2 days time. i've not been thinking straight lately as the time ticks...ticks...ticks.

the other half of the keychain is still hanging together with my set of keys eversince. your lovebug is still sitting nicely in my display cupboard. the emerald green eyeliner that you dropped when i was rushing to send you off to the airport is still in my car. i had 'frangelico on the rocks' the other day in wabisabi; the hazelnut liqueur that you loved taste the same.

anyway...i might not remember it monthly but not this particular date.

"happy anniversary, my little jukebox girl."

i miss your voice though.

i realized that it's definitely different this time.

i don't put much effort.

i don't feel anything at all.

don't know why.

probably i've seen through the whole game.

i'm too used and comfortable of being myself that i don't wanna change the way it is.

"i just wanna get out of here and buy a boat equipped with flare gun, harpoons and bazookas."

"you shouldn't take life too seriously.
 you'll never get out alive." - van wilder -

i started to live by that quote after the mishap.

i don't care as much.

i don't want to care as much.

coz i don't believe in 'it' as much.

i'm just waiting.

waiting for the time to take me away from here.

i know what i really want in life.

"one of the weakest point of our body is the heart."

you'll die straight when it stops functioning.

mine is hurting me bad as just the other day...i experienced the burn again..twice.

feeling a little fuzzy right now but i'll definitely get through the clouds.

after all...it's just a moment of life.

finally the time has come for what i've been anticipating all these years..or at least i believe it will fall into place as it is eventually. *fingers crossed* just left with a bit of the details and i'm good to start.

"you need sacrifices to achieve what you want."

- kei 6

i've made mine and i hope i don't regret it.